It’s strange. The one place where having shitty mental health has actually helped me is self image. What others think of me aesthetically has become less and less important as I try to fix the way I see the kind of person I am.
I’m fat. I’ve always been fat and I will probably always be fat. ‘Fat’ is not a terrible word to me and I can happily and confidently say that I would rather be fat and me than thin and anyone else.
The heat can be a problem for me for several reasons and not just being bigger. I’m also fair hair and fair skinned, meaning I burn up and overheat quicker than most. Staying cool is of paramount importance to me as well as feeling great in clothes I enjoy wearing. I don’t want to cover up like my rolls are a shameful secret. Believe me, it’s no secret that I’m not a size 8.
Last month I went on a family holiday to Spain and I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to show how much I don’t give a shit about what others think of my outfit choices and hopefully inspire others to do the same.
Below are my favourites…
It felt great to not give a damn, and for the first time in my 27 years I really didn’t give a crap what one single person thought of my outfit choices! I think I looked hella cute in every outfit, and my awesome fatkini.
I won’t lie, it’s taken a lot of pain and tears to get to the point where I love my body. I’ve had to unlearn a lot of things that were drilled into me for years, and still I sometimes feel shitty about my body. But that’s all part of body positivity, isn’t it? Accepting the good and the bad and having the courage to hold your head up high and not let yourself or anyone else convince you that you are not worthy of cute outfits, love and respect.
And just in case you’re wondering, here’s where I shop…
- New Look
- Forever 21
Have a great summer, everyBODY!